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| Friday, September 7th, 2007 | | 8:31 pm |
TKD
Oi! Oh man it has been so long since I posted on this thing. But I just have to have some where to rant since no one is picking up thier cell phone! *Glares at a mental image of my group of friends* Ah well. You all have lives and all that jaz. Well today in TKD I bomd my belt practice test. *GIRRRRRR!!!* I am so mad at myself I could bang my head against the wall with intent to do some real damage. First off, I hadnt paid enough attention to ediqute and walked right through the line of students from my sitting place> Yeah, for all those who know, thats an ouch right there. Then I didnt pay attention and when Mr. Dan (my instructor) told me to do front snap kick, I began my forward directional instead. then not kicking high enough, didnt do a full piviot, and to top things off the forward dirrectionals were sloppy! UHHHHHH! All because I let my nervousness take over. I know all of this stuff, I do it well in class all the time but when I was up there for the test I let everything get goosey. Well, it wont happen next time. I wont let it. I just hope I am right that it was only practice and not the actual test. I was not informed I would be testing so I dont think it was the test, but it still makes me nervous to think it might have been. I was lousy. Right now I would kill to have Shara and debora drill me. *storms off in a huff*
Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: linkin park, 'the face inside' | | Monday, April 30th, 2007 | | 11:24 am |
Thank you Ken. I had no idea why the silly thing wouldnt work for me. Now you all can view this. I was so happy when I got it! I was afraid I would get some thing I didnt like. Current Mood:  cheerful | | Saturday, April 28th, 2007 | | 6:48 pm |
| | Tuesday, April 10th, 2007 | | 9:24 am |
Good morning
Well Scott in now back home and he and I are having a wonderfull time together. We decided while he was away, to just forget about some hurts we had caused one another, and now, with those things out of the way, its amazing how well we get along. I wont even get into just how good the sex is now. *waggles eye brows, and grins* Thats not to say we never dissagree or anything though, because we do, but its nothing big and the argument forgoten as soon as we reach an understanding. Either that or we just drop it because there is no resolution and then its not worth worrying over. *sighs happily* Finally. Some good came from Shara and I arguing that was unexpected, but welcome. I realized that I had some where along the way picked up the very bad habit of CONSTANTLY using guilt trips on EVERYONE. No doubt that was a part of my problem with Scott. So I have realized that now, and am working on curbing the habit. I never realized how much I had ventured into being a mean person. I suppose maybe, because like I said I wasnt used to giving of myself like I do now, that because of that I started to need to point out every little slight against me inorder to deal with my stress. It was uncontious, but I am glad that God gave me the wisdom to see it. When Shara was here I spoke aloud to God and told him his way of giving me wisdom wasnt funny. My original thought was that it was the wrong way of giving me wisdom because I was arguing with Shara, but then I realized that God knows best no matter what, and changed it to just tell him it was hurtting to learn it the way he was teaching it. I think he understood, because it wasnt untill after that that I began to get even more insights into my life. Now if only I could use the insight with Shara herself. No we arent exactly arguing anymore she just isnt calling me right now. She is busy, I know, and I understand. The only problem is, I really just want to be able to call and say a quick hi with out getting her voice mail. Its childish of me I know. I am trying to let it go though. Hope to hear from you all soon.
Current Mood: happyCurrent Music: linkin park, crawling | | Saturday, April 7th, 2007 | | 10:20 am |
sister of mine
I am sure all of you have heard one way or another how pathetic I have been of late. Just know whatever Shara tells you is the truth and I deserve it. If however you could remind her I am sorry and that I do indeed (if not apparently) love her, you would have my extream gratatude. Oh and so you all know I understand if you guys dont talk to me till she and I work things out. You are all over there and have to be around her more after all. very sincerly, Laurie Current Mood:  crappyCurrent Music: evenesance "lithium" | | Friday, April 6th, 2007 | | 10:11 am |
Finaly
Yea! My husband is comming home! *dances a little jig* Hurray! I miss Scott so much when he leaves. I cant begin to tell you how much. Alex misses his daddy too, I know because every time I read Alex the little letters daddy sends him, Alex just grins as wide as he can. Pretty sharp for a 9 month old. Just so you all know I am now taking taekwondo, (as if I could resist ) and Scott told me that he wants to join too! how cool is that? I wonder how Scott and I will mix with this new aspect in our lives. Well I guess we will find out. It should be fun. Now all we have to do is get alex signed up and it can be a family thing....when he is older ofcorse. Current Mood: ecstaticCurrent Music: linkon park (i forgot the song name) | | Tuesday, April 3rd, 2007 | | 9:08 am |
Wow
My goodness its been forever since I last updated this thing. I wonder if any of you even visit this site anymore. Ah well, this post is mostly for my own benifit anyway. I am having such a fight with one of my friends. I love her dearly but, my goodness I dont think we can stand one another right now. I think I may know her side of it though. I think she feels that I am leaning too much on her when she has her own troubles. Its probly true, I am feel depressed for once. I guess the things I wanted most in life being a wife and mother, are really taking thier toll on me. I find that I just want to get away from it for a while you know? A break I guess, where its just me. I used to be such a loner before I met all of my wonderful friends at barrlow highschool. Alida, deborah, Ken, Kelson, and the rest of the barbares family, Caleb, ect.. I think its strange that onece I got what I really wanted, and I do still want it, that it became some thing I would want to be away from. I love my little Alexander, but I am not used to having to give of myself like this. The strain is telling on me, and I suppose the methods I have used in the past to cope just arent working anymore. Luckily Scott Will be home soon and he and I can lean on eachother, and maybe he can watch Alex for a day while I go have myself a break. Plus I am attempting to pick up some much needed activities around here, so that I can releave some of the stress.
Now, back onto this friend of mine I am agruging with. I know some day she may wander across this post, but I dont really mind the icy blast of contempt right about now. Perhaps I will later though? *Shrugs* Maybe. The truth is she is running away from her problems too. I think she too is feeling that hse just needs a break. However I can see that she has gained some thing dangerous inorder to componsate for her stress. She is shutting off her feelings. I realize that there have been problems with her feeling things for people that she shouldnt, and I understand her need to distance herself from those things. But I thought that I would be treated differently. I suppose that is selfish of me. *lol* actually I KNOW its selfish of me. I Guess though that I cant help it too much. When she hurts my feelings and I attempt to tell her about it, basically she tells me its not her problem and to just deal with it. That is not the sort of friendship I am used to from her at all. Normally when we would hurt eachother we would both feel bad and attempt to change our attitude so we wouldnt hurt one another. Not shrug it off and be like "no skin off my nose" kind of a thing. I do not want to distance myself from her however. No I am determined to find a way to "just deal with it" for the time being. The concern I have now is, what if she never stops treating me like this? I dont know if I can stand that forever like I promised her I would. I will try my best though. I remember a time when I could have done exactly that, and just been content to wait till the winter was over. Still, this friend has such a mountian of problems that I find myself asking what I would do in her situation, and the answer I know is that I would shut out uneeded feelings of guilt too. I am not sure if it would be the same case with her though. *sigh* still I did end up hurting her quite a bit by bringing up her troubles at the wrong time, so I think it is understandable. I guess the whole point of this post is simply to get it off my chest. What do you all think? Can you even tell from the information I have given you? Well let me know okay?
Current Mood: depressedCurrent Music: "swallow me then spit me out"... | | Sunday, April 2nd, 2006 | | 8:52 pm |
I just thought this was so cool
Wow its been quite some time since I updated this thing! Well to tell the truth unless I'm putting some thing informational on here I find it a bit awkward to write about nothing. Weird hu? By now I think you all know that I am pregnant, and to update you, its a boy who's name will be; Alaxander Scott Weathersbee. Or of corse Alex for short. Please feel free to comment on this quiz I took in Zarose's LJ. | You Are Mint Green | 
Balanced and calm, you have mastered the philosophy of living well.
Your friends seek you out for support, and you are able to bring stability to chaotic situations.
You're very open and cheerful - and you feel like you have a lot of freedom in life.
Your future may hold any number of exciting things, and you're ready for all of them! |
Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: Metalica, unforgiven 2 | | Sunday, January 22nd, 2006 | | 5:49 pm |
This is me?
 | You scored as Christmas. You are a very giving person. You've definatly got a Holly Jolly spirit. You are also quite cheerful and a family oriented person. You probably still leave cookies and milk for Santa even if you don't believe in him.
Christmas | | 94% | Valentines Day | | 88% | New Years | | 81% | 4th of July | | 75% | Saint Patricks Day | | 75% | Easter | | 69% | Halloween | | 69% | Thanksgiving | | 63% | </td>
Which Holiday Are You? *with animated pics*
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Okay, I didnt think I was quite to this extream but I do like to help people. And christmas is my favorite holiday. Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: " Then sings my soul" hym from church | | Monday, November 7th, 2005 | | 9:25 pm |
Hum, something I need to think about
 Dominant Personality: Calm Good Traits: You prefer to be exclusive, limiting yourself to only a few good friends that you've probably known for a long time. You don't date around either; you settle down with one guy, and you never get used to heartbreak. Bad Traits: You're someone who doesn't want to be bothered with everyone else's problems. You'd rather kick back and enjoy life at a slow pace. You tend to fall behind and procrastinate from being too laid back. People see you as: Shy, slow to catch on, and a daydreamer. People think you're in your own little world and are tenative to approach you. You're Most Like: Fear. You distance yourself from the people who aren't in your circle. The difference is that you aren't paranoid about this. You Need More: Understanding. There are other people out there worth knowing. It's okay to broaden your variety. What's your dominant trait? (10 unique results) brought to you by Quizilla Current Mood:  contemplative | | 9:18 pm |
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| | Saturday, November 5th, 2005 | | 5:31 pm |
guess what!?
Hey all of you. If anyone is reading my journals at all I have news for all of you now. I am pregnant. I have been for about the past three weeks. I am so happy! But I am also a bit scared. I mean, I want to be a good parent and I worry that I may not measure up. Well I guess that is typical right? I already told Shara and I am sure she will be glad to be released from her vow of silence. Well see ya all! sincerely, Laurie Current Mood:  enthralledCurrent Music: 'I am so Blessed' | | Friday, November 4th, 2005 | | 8:26 pm |
Okay where are all of you?
Hey. Alright I put up this thing so all of you people who asked me to do this would be able to see what is going on in my life. I havent recived even one comment on what I write, so I have no clue if anyone has even bothered to check up on me. Its frusterating. Alida, you keep gettin off line everytime I get on to try and chat with you, so if you have a problem with me I dont know what the hell for! I havent done anything to you. Look I have good news for everyone who cares to know it, but I cant tell anyone untill Scott gets back home. He needs to know first. Well I will write more later. bye for now. sincerely, Laurie Current Mood: goodCurrent Music: none | | Tuesday, November 1st, 2005 | | 2:20 pm |
Posoblilities
Hey again every one. Hope that you all had a fun halloween. All I got to do was pass out candy to the little munchkins, and play with my puppy. Its actually gettting cold over here in hawaii! Not that you all would consider it cold but since 90 degrees or more was average and now we are down to around 75-60, It feels cold. Well thats all for now my friends. Aloha, Laurie Current Mood: cheerfulCurrent Music: Jeramy camp ' I Offer All That I am ' | | Thursday, October 27th, 2005 | | 1:51 pm |
Hey all of you! Today is my birthday! I am now 22 years old. Can you believe it? I remember thinking when I was younger that it would take forever for me to get this old but here I am and it all seems to have gone by so fast. Well thats life right? Anyway I hope all of yo have a good day today. Laters, Laurie Current Mood: calm | | Wednesday, October 26th, 2005 | | 8:27 pm |
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| As a child... | You tried to pick up a slice of bacon right out of the pan |
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| How did it mess you up? | You have an affinity for socks and sandals |
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depressed
Okay, I expected the shit to hit the fan months ago for the stuff I wrote to taliena, but it seems to have just recently been discovered. I appologise for the post, I should have not put that there. I am currious though, why is Alida still so mad at the fact that taliena and caleb are a couple? I know that she was in love but did some thing happen recently that upset her? Anyway, I am sad now because I did not want to be the cause of her being upset. I miss you Alida. I hope you can forgive me. Current Mood: sadCurrent Music: shiniyatwain, up up up |
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